Block #15: 242-272 (Entry 15)

I have had it with this ward. I am finally going to get my ass up out of here. After all the events that have taken place over the last two weeks, I don't believe I can take anymore! I don't even know where exactly I should start. Lets see, it wasn't long after we found out that the Chief could talk when McMurphy decided to have a little party at the ward. I was asleep during the festivities so all I know is what I was told the next day. It turns out that Mr.Turkle was ok with McMurphy bringing to whores into the ward, and was ok with the patients drinking. It appears they made a very big mess, and in the morning McMurphy was found in bed with this blonde whore named Sandy. When I woke up the other patients were trying to get McMurphy to escape before Nurse Ratched could get to him. When all the staff was in they went around looking for everyone. It seemed that Billy was nowhere to be found, and when he was, he was in the Seclusion room with a whore named Candy. When Nurse Ratched saw him all she could say was that she couldn't believe it, and that she would have to tell his mother. Well Billy couldn't handle it, and while he was waiting in her office he found something sharp and slit his throat. McMurphy knew Nurse Ratched was the one to cause Billy to kill himself so McMurphy attacked her and caused her breasts to be exposed. After that McMurphy was taken away from the ward for three weeks and Nurse Ratched also had to go to the hospital. When Nurse Ratched returned she couldn't talk and had to use a pad of paper and pen to communicate with us, but she doesn't have her power any more. She let us know though that McMurphy would be back. Well one day McMurphy was brought in on a gurney and on the clip board attitude to his gurney said he had, had and lobotomy. By the looks of it no one believed it was McMurphy, they all just thought it was a dummy, but I could tell it was him. Well the next morning when everyone had woken up, McMurphy was dead and Chief Bromden had escaped the ward. Ever since then, a few of the guys have checked themselves out of the ward, and I finally believe that my time has come. I am done not being able to live my life. I have witnessed such horrific events here, I never wish to return. I have overcome such great challenges that there is nothing in the world that can bring me down. I would say until next time, but I am glad to say that there will be no next time. I am going to leave this journal here n the ward, hidden somewhere, for some other lost soul to find, and to read. They too will then see that they should never give up hope. Wish me luck.

-Frankie

Block #14: 232-241 (Entry 14)

Last time I wrote in this journal I was talking about how the Chief and McMurphy were sent up to the disturbed ward. While they were gone Nurse Ratched called for a therapeutic group meeting, at which she wanted all the men to attend. During the meeting she told us about how that behavior that took place in the shower was unacceptable and there was no excuse. She let us know that McMurphy and the Chief would both be receiving shock therapy, to hopefully help settle them down. I for one think that is a wonderful idea. I mean look at me, I received shock therapy and have been the most normal in my life than I have ever been. I think it is in the best interest for the ward, to finally bring McMurphy down from his thrown. Until next time.

-Frankie

Block #13: 219-231 (Entry 13)

It has been about two days since I have last written in my journal. Lately I was starting to worry about Nurse Ratched's ideas about McMurphy. See he actually got some more control and was able to convince the staff that the patients don't have to be together in the therapeutic meeting, after Billy Bibbit started talking about suicide, and McMurphy made a comment about how he feels he isn't need to sit in on other peoples needs. It is so disgusting too. McMurphy managed to get Dr. Spivey to subscribe to Playboy, Nugget, and Men. I can tell that Nurse Racthed is not happy with having to see naked women pined up all over the ward walls. Well when I started to begin thinking that Nurse Ratched would not have any control over McMurphy, she called for a group meeting, but with out him (on the account that he had a phone call). During in the meeting she talked to the other men, as well as myself, about how McMurphy has been making tons of money off of us and about wondering what is in it for him when he makes all these changes. I could tell all the men were starting to see it her way, and my way. Anyways, the next day McMurphy started placing more bets, trying to get money from the men, but they wouldn't go for it. Later on the night McMurphy and the other men who went on the fishing trip were required to take showers to remove any bugs on them. During the showers I could hear hollering and followed the rest of the men and staff to see what was going on. It turned out McMurphy and the Chief were fighting Williams and another black boy. The Chief and McMurphy were sent up to disturbed, finally where they belong. Well I don't know about the Chief, but I am glad to see that McMurphy has finally been sent somewhere where he can get some help. Until next time.

-Frankie

Block #12: 191-218 (Entry 12)

Today was a relaxing day for myself at the ward. I didn't do much, just sat back and watched everyone else do as they please.It turns out that the Chief signed up to join the other guys on the fishing trip, which I think is odd on account that he can't hear nor speak. It was just something that seemed kinda weired, I'm not sure. anyway, that lady, who supposedly is his aunt came to the ward to pick up McMurphy and the other guys. Her name was Candy, she seemed kinda young to be his aunt. There was supposed to be another lady with her, but she didn't come so they had to find someone else to help chaperon the fishing trip, or else half the guys wouldn't have been allowed on the trip and McMurphy would have had enough money. turned out Dr. Spivey decided to join the guys on the trip. It is so un-doctor like for him to be joining a bunch of lunatics on a fishing trip. But who am I to judge him for his choices, I think even McMurphy is starting to get to him. After the other men left for the fishing trip, I decided to just do some relaxing. I joined Nurse Ratched in a therapeutic meeting, with just her and myself (on the account that the other men usually in the meeting were gone). She asked me to open up about things I have been thinking about. I talked to her about how I felt about McMurphy, and how I feel it would be the best for the ward if he was kicked out. She let me in on a little something. She told me that she had her own plans for McMurphy already underway and that I shouldn't worry about it. After the meeting she told me I can go do as I like becuase there was nothing to clean, and so I came in here and started writing. I am feeling a bit tired and I am going to go rest. Until next time.

-Frankie